Unexpected Dream

It's so strange,we have not been contacting (dun bother to contact) or seeing (except in msn) each other for some time..but recently you kept appearing in my dream,why is this so?

Missing you heaps?kept thinking bout you?both answer for these will be No..that is so strange..

Why oh Why...will I'll be seeing you again tonight in my dream land??

Tmr gotta wake up early so time to say nite nite here..see you peeps soon =)

One more Try..

Have abandoned my Diary for like 3 months or more..

*Puff* Gone with the 2 hanging blog entries..I have DELETED them..WHY did I deleted them?becos I am lazy to continue with the 2 entries..might as well just start a new one from now onwards..PAST is HISTORY..

Gonna start FRESH NEW again..my goodness how many so called- FRESH NEW blog do I have so far??I tried to update my blog as often as I could but at the end FAIL eventhough there is this reminder alarm- UPDATE YOUR BLOG!!! and Cheeky Missy here just ignored..

So many stories to tell,figuring on how and where to start?

LAzy Butterfly...

HEloooo hows everyone??had a good start for the year of 2008??..sorry been missing for a while..busy to update my blog (lame excuse-"BUSY") yesss I am TOO lazy to update my blog =(
I am on MC today,eye infection..currently resting at home...

sorry guys still not in the mood in updating..will be back once I m in full force of updating all the long overdue posts ok..



Lots love,
CheekyButterfly

Last post for 2007

Last Day of year 2007..gonna ring in my last blog before year 2008 =)
So sad, I am the only one in my department..yes I am WORKINGGG today...
Oh Merry Belated Christmas everyone..Hope you guys had the most yummy turkey and fun with your friends/family/loved ones..

I have been a good girl but why didnt I received any Christmas presents from Santa Claus???Guess Santa has missed out my presents..you think so??

Thats for now..see you guys in yEar 2008..take care!!..
Lots love and HUGGSS...OHH I almost forgot- HAPPY NEW YEAR!!make sure you guys enjoy yourself ,let your hair down on New Year Eve..WOHoooo..

Dear Princess Yeng@Singpore,
Didnt know you do check out my blog..I have lost your contact num in Sgpor..get back to me soon ya...enjoy ur New Yr Eve celebration..Let me know when u r back in Town..Love ya always..



XOXO,
SChmettErling...

We met again..

Used to have some sort like chemistry which fizzled out with sparks but now Having this strange&mixed feeling when I met you..A million thoughts keeps repeating playing in my head..I dont know what to say,am I saying the right things/am I using the right words/in doubt..and how should I react..just being myself would be good enough..How can you be happy if you cant be yourself and trying to be someone else for the sake to impress the person whom you wish to be with..

*Wait a minute,this gonna be a long post so take a deep breath,make yourself comfortable before you continue reading this,stretch ur legs and arms,come on dont be lazy just do it..*Geeeezz

continue..
I felt embarrased on what I have done on my bestie 21st Birthday..that was the same night where my heart was shattered into pieces..next thing,frens sms came in..touching sms from Victz-"No matter what happened, you know we love you" Awwww I love you too and now I still do heheh =)

Me and Victz


Ads-"Stef,you look better than her not trying to make you feel better but thts the truth"..Mamalia aka Jean-"I can sense something fishy going on and think he likes u"..
Kelv sms-"Girl,take it easy okay"

Went 7eleven for ice cream after the Birthday Party at Decanter,Sri Hartamas..whenever I m feeling blue,ice cream is the best thing to cure my unhappiness..so you know what you can get me next time- not touching sms but Ice Cream or Starbucks Ice Mocha with whipping cream if I am feeling bluuee blue blue..Am I asking too much??No, right?? =)

My Bestie 21st Birthday..


Hey Mamalia,I realised you havent send me your 21st pics from your camera..how come there is no pics taken on both of us only??..

The next day I woke up,realised such a fool I was..I felt extremely UGLY..You have seen me being cheeky&playful& sweet as well as my ugliest side of ME..ME being a fool on that night was totally out of my control just cant help it..I was too proud to say sorry to you..at the end of the day I didnt appologised..

Everyday is a learning process and I have learnt from this..People tend to question if you were to start with something for instance like relationship and get worried about the ending,will it last or is it gonna end up with tears&broken heart,they forget that the middle,the process which counts the most..

You know what,I missed those chatting session in msn..I really do..Ever since that night,things has changed..our friendship has shaken a bit..I know me wasnt mature enough..childish..

People might think it will be silly to try out something which you know from the beginning it aint gonna be happy ending..well it depend on situation,sometimes you will never know by giving it a try...knowing it may end up in failure but yet not having regrets after that and remain as friends-Back to reality is hard to be friends..

A year later,I came back from Perth and we catch up again..went for jazz,dinner,wine testing,getting to know your friends,bbq,starbucks delivert..
I have changed but not you..you are still the same old you..Come and dissapeared,and then out of sudden "SUPRISE"..I am really sick of it,DO YOU KNOW THT,Mr ????You will never know cos you dont even know the existence of my ComFort ZOne here..

As I grow older, i can feel my wall is piling up higher around me where at times nobody can truly understand nor get me..my closet people or even me myself dont even know what exactly I am doing-right or wrong,good or bad?..HUH!So is okay if you dont understand me..I can be a pain in a Butt at times esp when comes to LOve..

To set myself free I have to let you out of my emotion box..Everyone of us has an inner box where all our emotions are being kept..My main in life is live life to the fullest..Today I am Happy Tomorrow I might not be..there is so much uncertainty in our life..You will get to see,feel and hear,new experience by going through those unhappy day..

Those things which are worth to keep I will keep..


After going through some bad experience you will tend to be stronger and wiser..I always remind myself "Is ok to make mistakes as long as you dont repeat the same mistakes all over again" at the end of the day you can have a good laugh at yourself with all the silly things you have done in the past =)..Love& relationship no longer guarantee you bed of roses..

Well I can continue with this post but I dont wanna get too Emo on it..so better stop here..Thts the end of the story bout me and Him..Cant wait for year 2008, let 2008 be one filled with happiness for me..no more drama like this..have this feeling there will be suprises waiting for me *winks* will keep you guys posted especially those who is staying across the ocean hahaha..the one who loves poking me in facebook..

Lots lOve,
Schmetterling

MERRY CHRISTMAS 2007

HOHO Santa Claus was in Town..Christmas eve in Decanter@Sri Hartamas..Had dinner with ADs,Hem and lovely Moy..And it was quiet and empty at the beginning..later,crowd were building up =)..Not gonna talk too much in this post..Let the pics do the talking =)

Our main dish. Turkey..

It was empty with only 4 tables including our table..

jeng* jeng*..the crowd is coming.. =)

We had a great time!!!



The Girlsss..

Ads blowing with her little trumpet, Merry CHristmas!!

Boys, faster drink up ...faaassttt...faaaasttt...

Thats my CHristmas - 2007. How bout yours? =P

Holiday Mood @ Work

Morning Morning..my bosses are still around not on leave yet same goes to my 2 male colleagues from my department..means I cant sneak out and have to come back office(plan to head down Pavilion to change my Ted Baker bag)..Woke up early today eventough didnt sleep in early..not feeling good cos the food I had last nite on pre christmas party hasnt digest yet..I was like a big fat pig sitting on the dinning table and stuffed myself with french fries and favourite pasta..feel like vommiting everything out at the moment..Yuckss..

Me totally has turned off my working mode..looking forward for Christmas but NO PLAN on that night which is depressing,maybe I just hibernate and sleep in throughout next week on my off day,how stupid it is..applied leave just to hibernate at home..SIGHHHhhhh...I cant wait for year 2008 to come..2nd half of the year 2007 is just not my year..