Schmetterling's Story Garden

2011-09-11T23:01:00.000+08:00

不知不觉已经半年了。你还好吗?事情都已经来个了断，可是我还是很难得接受。
放不下的并不是他们，而是我本人。每次和他们在一起，我不知不觉地感到心酸。朋友的误会已经到了没得救的地步。请不要用感情来判断好吗?

发觉原来自己在他们的眼前只不果是一只乌龟/鸡，不敢发言。我真的很心疼，无法形容。我安慰自己说：＂好啦，哭了就好。这个世界上没有完美的人，我要学会接受和体谅别人。就是他们的不完美的一面令我很难受。

有时我选者不说是有reason 的并不是我害怕和不敢面对。我不是一个什么伟大的人，也不需要证明什么，只不果我不想你们再错下去。只要我能补救这个裂痕，我都要坚持下去。总有一天你们会明白。

这个凤波，我领悟了很多事情。人家讨厌或恨你是有理由。你越恨他代表你还很在乎他。每次被人家left out 也是有理由。我已经把事情看透了，look urself in front of the mirror before u start cursing n complain bout why people misstreated u..people arent perfect so do you..

This post was actually written beginning of the month, good try to blog in chinese . Lots of unfinished post still in my draft folder.

Beginning of 2011...

2011-01-05T18:37:00.003+08:00

Hollaa...not too late to wish everyone a very "HAPPY NEW YEAR 2011"

What had happened in year 2010 will stay in year 2010 so lets look foward for year 2011,shall we?

time to review ->matured looking me geeezz..

xoxo

Truth

2010-11-21T22:57:00.001+08:00

Didnt know that the truth can bring huge dissapointment,sadness and discomfort. Is that the reason why people tend to lie?

Unwanted visitor

2010-07-23T22:45:00.000+08:00

Mum: Are you coming back home this weekend?

Stef: Yes..erm maybe, why?

Mum: You better come back home cos last night a rat sneak into the kitchen. You know, I am afraid of rat so the minute it went in to your room, I quickly shut the door.

Stef: GODDD...so you actually invited the rat to overnight my place with my zoo collection in there?

Back home, joe's mum suggested to grill a piece of dry pork meat and hang it inside the mouse trap. Taddaa less than an hour, he got trapped inside.
Mum insisted to drown him with hot cooked water but is too violent, I free the rat in a nearby jungle instead.

Ok here comes the most headache part, changed my bedsheet,pillow case,and "them"

Now my lovelies is time for some sun bathing after shower =)

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2010-04-29T11:04:00.000+08:00

I have been MIA for a while..I just dont have the interest to blog anymore..
Me going through 'coming-age' phase..too many random things is bothering me..I am still hiding inside my coconut shell *thinking deeply* what to do next...so much have been said but not action has been done..it is easy to say then actual doing it..

I dont know who reads my inactive blog, but to those who follow my blog, I wont be blogging till I m out from my shell, i am sorry till then...

虎头年 2010

2010-02-03T01:30:00.000+08:00

我的天啊！为什么公司采取这一个规则？？
新头新的作风。没办法，我们这些"打工仔”只能安份首举地听从新头定下来的规矩。
闹钟必须调早半个小时。毕竟刚起床的我需要时间来warm up ，望着天花板发呆一段子才肯离开我的睡窝。动作都会比较慢，头脑迟钝。不知为什么最近，我很不想去上班。

即将来临的日子，本小姐只有早到不能迟到，八时三十分 sharp 向我公司的 punch card 机报到。End of the day, 五时三十分或 (迟些 no fix time)向punch card 机说声 Goodbye。就连上厕所也必须通知它。简单来说，只要你离开大门你都一定要通知它。

看来未来的日子会不好受。
不知新虎头下一步会是什么？

Jap test postpone to end of the month after cny, i have more time to get ready =)

Last Test for the sem

2010-02-01T22:02:00.002+08:00

Tick! Tock! Tick! Tock!..Time is running fast and I havent started on my revision, 4 chapters to go..Arghhh..decided on not to further my Japanese lesson in April..Waste of time and the traffic congestion after work is driving me nuts..
Salute to those who take up part time studies and working full time, they must be very good in time management..

Cant wait to finish my Beginner Lesson end of this month..I have my tuesday off by then..yay,finallyy...

Cny is just around the corner, shopping will be a good way of celebarting the pre-cny..anticipate into festive shopping mood..

Going to crawl into my comfy bed and called it A Day..

Without a purpose and goal,
you wont be able to move forward =)

Beginning of 2010

2010-01-27T09:30:00.003+08:00

Happy Late 2010 everyone, me back to scribble nibble on my blog =)..
May the Tiger Year “Roaaaaarrrr” be a better one and to make this happen I have list out my new year resolutions..

1) No more procastinating
2) Punctuality
3) Make an effort to meet up with friends esp those whom I seldom get to see. Be a better friend.
4) More saving, ahhhh I think I have already started on this since last year no more compulsive shopping..
5) Be sharp and sensitive while making a decision
6) –private-

Recap of the Year 2009…occupied and committed with work, travel to JB every week..WOrkk WOrkk and work even during weekends..Fair enough because it was the year of ox..
Social activity was getting lesser and lesser..sometimes don’t even know what my friends are up to..sorry for being such a lousy friend =/

Learn to be more open minded and accept that people will change no matter how dear or close they are to you..stop questioning yourself why or confront them..cos end of the day you will received same kind of answer which consist-"I think you... or I thought you...thats why...."
They have changed and you are no longer part of their journey..is very disappointing and hurtful by typing out this sentence and read it over and over again (took a long pause and big SIGHHHHHHHHH) Some sort of karma which I am getting it back now..I might have neglected my friends or not being sensitive enough towards my dear friends feeling..Sorry..
Maybe is a good change for them which I should be happy for them..or it can be I have changed..I am not perfect either..

The “younger” I get, the more things I worried about and being too sensitive over small tiny issue..is this what we mean as getting wiser?

What an emotional year..but some people will never changed =) my parents
I am blessed having a loving parents whom showered me with lots of love and care..

Always back me up when I fall..my pillar of strength..

No more a little girl..

Lastly,Friends who are always there and care of me, name which I don’t think need to be mentioned here and you should know who YOU ARE….Thank You XOXOXOXOXOXO..

My dear Shrek, thanx for accepting who I am and

The SillY Billy ME

Have you set your new year resolution?

(More pics coming up)

Short Note from Me to You

2009-11-22T22:05:00.004+08:00

One month later, here goes the short note :

Dear Sista,
Have faith in what you are doing,dont loose hope and dare to move towards your dream.
Dont emphasised on the result
but the process. As this is not the end but a new beginning
So what are you waiting for? Sail away from the harbour, catch the trade winds in your sails and EXplore your new journey...

Please remember this,
The dissapointment you faced does not equal to your present and future,
All the matter is what are you going to do now?

Your Favourite 3 fans which you might have forgotten....
and They ARE

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TRIPLE D

We will follow you no matter where you go,
We will be there when you need us,
Most importantly,
"We Love You" so please dont stuff us into the plastic bag =(

Not forgetting Mr.T has left his footprints on that night just for you =) *smile*

p/s: Looking forward to your masterpiece.

Tea Time on a Lazy Sunday

2009-11-19T18:49:00.001+08:00

Indulge myself with the Finest English Afternoon tea session in Carcosa Seri Negara.

This place used to be the residence of our Former British High Commissioner to Malaysia.

But now it has been transformed as Luxurious Deluxe Boutique Hotel. Among the guest who stayed here were Queen Elizabeth II and Prince Philip.

SLurrp..Cakes..

Love the English Style of Tea set. Wait till I have my own house,will get myself a Tea set.
Dear Friends, you can come over for high tea at my place then =)

My obsessions are cakes,sandwiches (*love bread),cookies..cant get enough of it..

Basically I can survive with just sandwiches and bread minus off the rice =) maybe due to the upbringing in western country. Poor Shrek has to accompany me at least once a week for bread-meal no rice..

Personaly, the food was so so nothing to shout about maybe I shouldnt have put too much expectation of the food. Environment and the splendid ambience

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High Tea @ The Loaf in Pavilion Shopping Centre.

Latte.Mocha cubes.This was highly recommend by the staff.
Personally,nothing special.

Love the almonds with choco powder

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At the Garden's Shopping Centre

Cant remember the place name. Not worth telling, was there on one of the public holiday.

The service was terrible. My 1st and the last visit.

My next visit should be High Tea@ Delicious

High Tea is not so common in Malaysia thats why hardly can find a nice cosy place for high tea.

Out From Here

2009-11-02T19:16:00.004+08:00

I am resigning from...coz I cant take it anymore...!!!!!!!!!!
P/s: What is my next step?*Sniff*

Locked myself UP

2009-10-26T23:02:00.005+08:00

Monday,26th October 2009 at 8.15am

While I was hurrying for work I accidentally slammed the door,here goes the
"BOOOOOmMMM " sound followed by me screaming "OH NOOOOOOoo" because I have left my keys inside the room..What a Great Monday!!! Since my keys are all left inside my room and how am I going to get out from my house?? Thank god,Moy left the spare key at the dinning hall..
Tomorrow I have to duplicate another pair of spare keys for "emergency use" =P..

Been very productive with my work today..Skipped my lunch, had only a cup of warm soya milk, 2 slices of home made banana bread for breakie and a glass of water for the whole day..I am getting very near to be a Workaholic!

Another long day tomorrow,Japanese class after work. I will be totally in my own little world during the class as I have missed 2 classes due to business trip =/..

おはよございます

2009-10-17T08:33:00.006+08:00

意外にも私は非常に早い今日目覚めた.
マレーシアの公休日はここに今日ある because of Depavali.
To those who celebrate Depavali,Happy Depavali to you!!!
And to those who are not celebrating Depavali, Happy Holiday!!
Gotta start packing my stuff really soon. Will be heading to Genting Highland to attend my Besties's Event which is theThe Grand Final of Miss Astro 2009. The winner of Miss Astro will represent Malaysia to participate in Miss Chinese International in Hong Kong next year.

Contestant No.2, Jean Thor..No matter what the outcome is you are already a winner.Getting the title tonight will be a bonus. Just Enjoy the show tonight,babe!!

You are very close to your dream now..All your efforts & hard work finally paid off.

Have a good weekend folks,Tadaaa!

我的华语Post

2009-10-14T21:15:00.000+08:00

第一次以华语写我的部落格，才发现知己的华语是那么的糟搞!!

好多字都忘得一干二净了，
Ray,看来我必须向你学习话

最近工作好忙所以没时间写我的Blog

Just two more weeks,my project will be go on live and I'll have more time updating my long overdue post ..this I promised okay =)...

I NEED A BREAK!!!!!!!!!

Cooking Session

2009-08-26T21:21:00.002+08:00

"Who says I dont know how to cook?"

Vege with fish cake+ minced beef

Too much minced beef.

Green Tea Noodle

Too dry

Ginger Chicken

Could taste better,something is missing...

Fried Rice by Shrek

To much of minced beef

I am not really good in chinese dishes. Will cook again once I have the time =P

There is always first time, it will better next time.

Next time, I will go for my favourite pasta with my secret recipe.

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Even Shrek knows how to cook too, lets see =)

Minced pork with salted fish + ginger.

Failed case!! dont ever purchase salted fish from hypermarkets.

SOup. Ingredients :Vege,Eggs, Ginger & Anchoives

Is more like a Ginger Soup.

Vege.

Can be better =P

Nice attempt from both of us.

Looking forward for our next cooking session.

The King of Pop

2009-08-20T23:12:00.001+08:00

This post came in bit late. It took me some time to finish this post, everytime I start on typing I felt uneasy and sad.

We will never able to see him perform on stage, never hear him sing, no more negative rumours or critics about him.
His sudden depature shock the world and breaks everyones' heart.Every radio station was playing MJ songs. Some fans called up to radio station and burst in tears. Me was looking forward for his upcoming concert in London and hopefully he will be coming to Asia.

MJ was never happy since he was a kid. Gone through terrible childhood. Thats the price you have to pay being an artist at a young age. His artistry and talents are unequaled, he spent his adulthood chasing for his childhood which he never had in the past.

I am not his die hard fans but I used to be one when I was young. Growing up in western country, you hardly get to listen to Chinese songs and so Michael Jackson became my first idol. I have watched his concert video numerous time which I greatly enjoyed and never get bored with. Even tried to learn his moonwalk moves =)

Human are funny species. When someone has left us only we start realising how much we going to miss him/her.
Ever since, MJ left us,everyone came up and start showing their sympathy and sadness, crying all night long, pint point at the media who make up negative rumours bout him BUT where were these people when MJ was accused of child sexual abuse? Did they-so called fans came up and support MJ? yeah,only minority did.Everyone just kept silent. Now he is gone, people started saying MJ was actually innocent.

Brooke Shields's speech was one of my favourite during Michael Jackson Memorial Service

MJ The King of Pop,May you rest in peace.
You will be deeply missed.

Dont mess with me..on MONDAY

2009-08-17T18:07:00.006+08:00

Generally Monday is not a good day for me and to most of us, i think ..BLUE MONDAY.

But today is one of the Worst MONDAY ever for Month of August'09 ...

"Excuse me, today is Saturday or Monday?" her voice coming from behind as I was walking in front of her..and obviously I am the only person in front of her and She thought I am deaf I didnt hear her..maybe I shut off my ear that time. and yes I dont have a name, my name is "Excuse Me". The moment she asked me the questions I know she is ready to give comments.

Her eyes was looking straight towards my black pants from zara..
"I am sorry ya, on Saturday." Then she smile back at me with a FAKE SMILE..
For God Sake,the way you telling ,me is not a sincere way of telling, indirectly you are teasing me as I dont have dressing sense on how to differentiate work and casual.
Well well, she was trying to say I am not allowed to wear this third quarter pants to work except Saturday..and this the pants I am wearing is too casual..

EXCUSE me, I was wearing this pants for almost a year..And this pants was meant for work ok??How many women are wearing the same kind of pants to work..
Make it clear here, I am not pissed because of her stupid comment on what I wore but the way she confronted me..AND this is not the first time,madam..

At least can you please tell me in a proper way. Furthermore you are in XXXXX you should know how to confront a person..Dont you understand communication skills ??
..I got so offended and went straight to my place switch off my pc,packed my stuff and went off home..it was just in time 5.30pm sharp..

I might be still in PMS but can you please tell me in proper way without giving me indirect-teasing& fake smile -> You can use this tactic to other people BUT NOT ME,I AM SORRY..
I am not a crazy woman who dont listen to people's reasonable comment as nobody is perfect.

Enough of Monday,have a good Tuesday.

Love,Cheekystef

Itchy Hand

2009-08-14T19:09:00.004+08:00

If you havent log in to my blog you might not notice the changes here..
Itchy Hand, need time to fix it back now..Arrggghhh..

11th July 2009 Dinner

2009-07-17T22:40:00.001+08:00

Max Kitchen

Nice cozy place make you feel as you are having dinner at home imagine Shrek is doing the cooking and I am his guest =). You are dining inside bungalow unit. Now Max Kitchen has move to a new place where parking wont be a problem.

Here comes our starter, scallops..

Wagyu beef with mushroom sauce and mash potato

Roasted Duck with mash potato.

My last 2 pieces, you want some??

Our dessert, coconut ice cream and 2 strawberries on each side wrapped with crispy "meehoon" look alike.

This place was highly recommended by Cliff and Jean. Lobster wasnt in their menu list unfortunately, end up with roasted duck =(

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WE ARE LEAVINGggggg back to UK...

Glad to catch up few days before 2 of you hop on a jet plane back to UK.

Sorry guys, I m not a happening Seremban Girl..Jusco is the only place I can reckon lol*

This was supposed to be the best pic of the night but turn out to be.....
Couldnt take a perfect pic on that night..Tried few times but failed.

Next time I will choose a better lighting place for taking picture.

The photographer tried his best to capture the best angle by using an orange colour painted road divider as tripod..hhahahah

Happy Birthday,LovelY Moy!

2009-07-17T21:22:00.011+08:00

Moy's pre-Birthday Celebration

Venue : Jarrod& Rawlins@ Damansara Heights

Time : 10pm
Date :3rd july 2009

We reached slightly early to have our dinner before the Birthday Celebration.

Bacon (original not those beef,chicken or whatsoever!!), sausages and mash potatoes.

This cake cant compare with Thomas Sabo from San Terri =)

Thumbs up!!

Birthday Girl.

Had an early celebration as she will be heading to Bangkok on her actual Birthday.

The mask man supposed to be quarantine at home =P

See you girls in Bangkok..Muackss...

Moy, one of your birthday wish is granted =) Hope you like it.

Love.Hope.Faith- May you have all these 3

Video of the night

Vision was not clear but Audio wise acceptable =)

Emotions translated into w-o-r-d-i-n-g-s

2009-06-18T16:45:00.005+08:00

Certain things are meant to be unknown and which is locked due to some reason. (As for me , good intention =) )
The deeper you dig for the Thruth the more you feel bad about it. Like digging ownself hole,guiltyness will keep on haunting whiledigging for the Truth.We dont need to know the Truth if is none of our business right.Each of us do have our own story which goes on till the end of the day.Not all of the story lines are exposed to everyone.

Sometimes We, Human do get blinded by curiosity and unconsciousness end up at people's restricted zone which we are not supposed to. We have cross the border.
You want to know Everything & Anything bout him/she 's past and current. Or do we called it as busy body?

Okay, think I have throw enough of downers to this post..
Pardon me, I on the emo-roller-coster ride now. Will be fine after it stops moving.
Thats all for now. Have a good day folks !!!

***************************************************************************************************************** Japanese Test 2 was released yesterday. NO MASSAGE CHAIR!!!!
My result 39/43. Remarks given was Excellent by my teacher =)

Happy weekend flies..

2009-06-10T13:10:00.017+08:00

Appologised for my dissapearance, long hiatus i knowwwww..

Phew, Japanese Test 2 completed..Next week lesson, will be KANJI *headache* and can forseen the coming exam will be listening and Kanji..I need to practise..argghh...and is not as easy as Arigato, Konichiwa..Wonder why there are so many japanese type of character- Hiragana, Katakana and Kanji which Chinese Character..Result up next week, full marks= Ogawa Massage Chair *Finger Cross*Thanks Shrek..

Personally....

Too many random thoughts recently jumble up in my mind ..Cant see my complete puzzle..Is this truly what I wanted to be? Am I bored on this? Move on and let go or just dont bother? It does affect me and making me demotivated on daily my task..Can it be the coming age? At this time?lol...not too bad at least I have the mood to crap and make fun of myself.

Maybe I should just look forward and see what are the suprises coming along..Touch wood,all this while everything seems smooth sailing..I should be grateful and appreciate it. There might be small mini issues which I did missed out. Should learn on which are the "priorities"..As we go along the path, our "priorites" keep on changing at the same time we might need to sacrifice..

Due to different people having different path and priorities,the bonding among each other might not be there, distance is getting further, too many unkown secrets..Well you cant always gain without loosing..

Last weekend's event :
Catching up with ex-Metro gals..

Friday Night which I would like to spend quality time with my lovley friends except for exceptional case if I cant make it for the gathering. Saturday best describe as Saturday Night Fever in the club..Missed out and left out from clubbing and happening life nowadays...

AnyWAy, FRIDAY

Last Friday's venue : Boathouse, TTDI. Our MIA appeared on that night, Ms.Adeline with her laptop, came straight after work.

While waiting for the rest, time to show off our talent in drawing.

My pick-> Spagetti Ogolio.

Moy's favourite-> Cabonara with beef bacon.

Mushroomss--yummy*

Newly crowned Miss Malaysia 09- Miss Sophia jk =P.

Cute Pose requested by Racheal. Ahem guess we did not meet her expectation

SATURDAY

Saturday was a public holiday, My Oh My the Traffic was terrible. I was stuck inside the parking for an hour till I got fed up and parked my car at the roof top.

When was the last time, we hang out together?? Since CNY?

He is sooo adorable. Fast learner, 4 months plus start to crawl..now he is 6 months, having his first 2 tiny teeth..

Guan Shin: " Who is next??Whose turn for marriage?"

Stef : "Too early not ready. Still enjoyng my current life =) "

Phanie :" Wait till you guys can get me a boyfriend."

Wei Yeng->No words needed, check out the pic above. Hopefully soon.

Time to go home, Little Maxwell.

THe TWO NO-PLAN COusIn SIS enjoying their window shopping.

Let me introduce you my new zoo member, IS Mushy ( Sophia, is not Cawanmushy!!)..

Oh NOOoo..Still in 2008

2009-05-20T22:42:00.002+08:00

Peeps will update soon..I have all the pics with me now..
Stay with me..

* We are at Paradise* 11th December 2008

2008-12-20T23:26:00.005+08:00

Past few months we have been working very hard as we always said work hard but do have some fun..Life is not just bout money and working..we need to pamper ourselves once in a while. Away from our busy working schedule and hectic lifestyle in the city.

Had our light brunch in Puchong before we head to our Paradise..Shrek refused to tell me where we will be going but I already figured out what will be our next activity..I can read you!!

Here we are Cyberview Lodge Resort& Spa

View outside from our massage room

After we select our package, both us were guided to our changing place.

Sauna and steam room

Ja---cuzziiiii..I have completely my own privacy nobody was there..Cant wait to get in for my naked skin to feel the hot spring water. Yes Bite me...is sooo relaxinggggg...

After 20 min out from relaxing pond , I wished I could stay in longer ..a lady came and showed me the way to a cozy room where we had our massage and "Shower in the Garden"..it was superb..just that the bath tub was bit too short for us..according to Shrek, we have to sit up instead of lying our body...No pics on this most enjoyment moment, you should tried it out yourself..

First, was the whole body massage which drifted us off to Zzzzz followed by, the application of aroma oil which we have choosed.

After the massage, we had our short rest on a comfy couch..

Followed by scrub which is the body treatment..Shrek was saying they used peanut butter kind of smell and colour to apply on our body for the scrubbing..then we were covered by a thin layer of plastic for couple of minutes with the mud-peanut butter..

I can feel my smooth and shiny skin after the scrub after they removed the mud..

At the end,we spent 30 min in our bath tub indulge in a Rich Milk and Fresh Blossom Bath Scented filled with roses.

My smiley face

Shrek's goofy look..

A great and relaxing day on a public holiday after a late night in Velvet =)..

Thinking hard what is next??

Check out http://www.cyberview-lodge.com/spa/index.html for more detail.

p/s: As you noticed some of the pics are blur not I did it on purpose, I am still new with this camera.

FRIENDSHI*P

2008-12-19T17:28:00.009+08:00

How would you define friendship?
Common Chinese quote: At home you depend on your family but outside you depend on your friends.

True friends will be there for you always and stick with you through the good times share the laughter and bad times when you need a ear listen to you, a shoulder to lean on or a hug to reassured you everything gonna be alright. Browsing through your facebook’s comments, friendster’s testimonial, autograph etc you will notice this phrase “friendship forever” “ Best friends forever”. May I ask where are all your “Best Friends Forever” Friends? Do you still keep in touch with them? Were they there for you when you needed them the most? Or were you there for them when they need you?

True friends don’t stick with you always thru ups and downs but True friends are like Stars, you don’t get to see them always but in fact they are always there smiling at you.

A friend of mine- There is no such thing as best friends asking me not to be too naïve and childish. At the beginning, I truly disagree with him and we had a debate on this. Now I truly understand.

As you grow older you will realize those friends you frequently hang out with suddenly disappeared. But could you blame on their disappearing? No you cant! Because you are the one who put them on a pedestal, being too close and depend on them whereby they never put you as one.

As we grow older the busier we get the lesser time we have for our close friends especially entering Working World. Meeting different series group of people/ colleagues where me might spend most of the time with instead with our friends. Have to commit ourselves in work, relationship or family. Things start to change in term of our living lifestyle, circle of friends become bigger and complicated or the other way round. We will be having our own lives, thinking changed and going to different directions. That is how distance comes into the picture.

The distance slowly eats up the friendship that comes to an end.
Ending a friendship not necessary because hating each other or having a fight but because is time to move on by our own and we no longer need to be there for each other.
Don’t be upset because of the end of the friendship- Don’t Cry when comes to an end but Smile because it Happened.

Each of us is like a movie director where we are making our own movie from the day you were born. Friends come and go but ,some they played a smaller role in your movie,some might be still in your movie till the ending of your Movie..

Xiao Farn is back home

2008-12-07T21:07:00.000+08:00

Maddie is back for holiday. This girl never changed still "little chili padi". She is a hardcover party girl, never missed out any party and rave back in Manchester.

What else can I say, YOU GO GIRL, ENJOY AS MUCH AS YOU CAN. =)

So the only place you can catch up with her will be in the club. Mr.Shuang suggested a club behind Sheraton Hotel in KL, forget the name of the club. Not worth mentioning, it was dead a boring place as the music sucks.

Firefly and Butterfly

Jen, Housefly and CheekyFly

We spend less than 2 hours and left for bak kut teh in KL. Me,Joe,Jean and Cliff enjoyed our bak kut teh more than in that boring club.

2008-12-05T18:58:00.000+08:00

WARNING: THIS POST NOT FOR DIABETIC.

*Knowing someone thinks of me most of the time...
Someone I dont see myself with in the beginning..
Someone I accept as a good friend...
Someone who dont mind listening me whining and pouring my dissatisfaction.
Someone whom I really missed when this someone is million and million miles far away from ME..
Someone I almost missed out till the very last minute...
I might not know where our future will head to but I can promise you, I am going to spice up your life with chillies and pepper =P *.

He is special because he is simple and simple is the hardest thing to find in a person which I have finally found..
And he has finally "melt the snow mountain" =)

Some people may wonder when will they meet their perfect match?
There is no perferct match because
There are different series of people you meet when you are at different stage.
At different stage, you tend to have different view and needs.
Those people who get hurt from Love is okay cos you are entering a different stage where you meet new series of friends..
End of the day, you will know(dont ask me when and how? YOU WILL KNOW) if you meet the one in the end of your series which is your so called *Perfect Match*.

Knock* Knock* Where are YoU??

2008-11-19T20:56:00.000+08:00

Yes yes I AM in the coconut SHell..BACK!!

Mountain High of work..Stress to the max that makes my Brain going on *Strike* demand for holiday!! (Procastinating,couldnt be bothered..just dont care)

Was admitted to the hospital 2 weeks ago and....after that..then...at the end,I am HEALTHY and SICK no more..but lesson learnt -MUST have personal insurance

Just a quick update Partay tonight, Maddie gal is back from UK for holiday.. ..Wohhooo,happening partay ppl will be in Town...

Life is Unpredictable and Short

2008-10-27T19:36:00.005+08:00

Wednesday 22th October 2008.
SMS was sent at 3am. Woke up at 5am drag my butt out from my comfy bed,ride on a jet plane to JB and the sms:

"I have just been informed that Ryan has just passed away in a car accident near Taman Tasik."

WHHHHhhhAAATTT WTF????Was shocked and stoned for couple of minutes..FREEZE like a statue..Thought I am in my dream..IS that RYAN?my JB colleague "RYAN LAUW"?Is it really HIM?I just met him last thursday night for a drink in Starbucks. We even plan to party in Velvet in 2 weeks time cos he has to send his parents for medical check-up..wondering who will be sending them for check-up now? and he is going to buy me dinner when we meet up again..I Repeated reading the same sms few times* over and over again..after reading it I ignored the sms thinking it might be some joke BUT who on earth will sent this kind of crap joke??

My instinct telling me something is really wrong so I reply the sms to double confirmed.It was a quick reply :

"Yes my dear.He met with a bad accident. I went to see him but post mortem was taking place..So went saw the car..Quite bad!"

Everyone was dead shock with this news...it was my dampest and gloomiest day ever..Raining whole day long as it will never stop,Smiley Sun was MIA.

I will never see,hear,msn and recieve sms from him again whereby he just added me in msn and me added him in FB but will never be approved by him....So now everytime I am in JB it will remind me of him..happening fella..sms from him has been all removed from inbox as well as his contact..he just joined our company less than 4 months..

Right after he sent his girlfriend home, he met an car accident at the T-junction nearby his girlfriend place..He was thrown out from his FTO sportcar and I was told he did not tied his safety belt and the Volvo car who hit him is still hospitalised.

Dear Ryan,your sudden departure will be dearly missed by your family members, friends and colleagues..May you rest in peace. Farewell from now from the low lands.

Everyone esp those whoI cared alot-you know who you are..pls pls be extra careful on the road make sure you put on your safety belt all the time even short distance..You can argue saying Life is Fated, well it might be true but at least u did your part by preventing it to be happened.

Now I truly understand the meaning of live life to the fullest and appreciate people around you..

Alright Life goes on..gotta cheer up and look forward =)

Sunshine after the Rain

2008-10-20T22:40:00.015+08:00

Not my day today. because is MONDAY.I was fined RM80 because of illegal parking.I left my handphone at home and I need to rush back home to get it.worried of my operation people wont be able to reach me..quickly i grab my car key and wallet..i almost reach home,only I realised "DAMN I forgot to bring my house key...I am so absent minded"..so back to office again.
Thinking will be dropping by just for few minutes so decided to park my car outside my office building instead of basement parking.. save time..once I step in to the office my boss asked me to start with our project dicussion..it was supposed to be at 10.30am by looking at the time is just 10am..guess it wont be too long so joined in with the discussion..

Half way during the discussion my boss was asked to meet someone in the conference room so he excuse himself for a short moment..he should have told me ,he will be away for like 30 minutes so I can actually go home and get my handphone..I started to panic as if i m in the hot soup worried bout lots of missed call I might received..as I wanted to sneak out he came back..so continue with the dicussion..after an hour,I am done.

Once I step out from the building I noticed lots of empty places, cars are all gone except few cars were still there..I get closer to my car,a piece of paper on my car windscreen,it is not an advertisment..DAMN I am FINED by MPSJ RM80 because cars are not allowed to park...What can I say??

It was a BAD start but it ended up with a BIG SMILE =)

It does not melt in my hand
It does not melt in my mouth
BUT it DOES MELT MY HEART....

Never fail to suprise me and making me HAPPY EVERYDAY eventhough you are far far away.

GOODBYE to my Bad-DAy...

SurpriseSurprise on Monday Blue

2008-10-13T22:48:00.005+08:00

“Morning, is this Stefanie”
“Morning,yes I am.”
“ Saya ni hantar bunga (I am sending flowers) so your office is Nippon Express in Wisma Consplant?”
“Yes.”
“Ok.”

Well, it was early morning on a blue blue Monday. I was late for work because of the massive jam and my boss didn’t come in as his son was admitted to ICU. Honestly it didn’t strike to my mind as someone gonna give me a surprise..As I was stressing to finish my work..my mind was all about work nothing else..

An hour later, my receptionist called me to pick up something at her place..
I was speechless not because it wasn’t Bunga (flowers) but because it was unexpected surprise and thought of sending me this

eventough you are currently far far away..

A Chocolate a day, makes Steffi happy everyday..

And it really enlighten my blue Monday..Cant wait to finish all the chocolates <3

P/s: Is this one of the SPICES from you? =P

GOOD Things

2008-10-12T18:51:00.005+08:00

Comes to those who wait =)
I am a girl who wants to LOVE, hoping to be LOVED and is searching for TRUE LOVE which everyone is searching for the ONE LOVE.
Sometimes you've been hurt so much in the past, you swear that you'll never be such a fool again and never trust love again coz love hurts.

When we finally can let go those bad/rotten apples, we should learn on how to open our heart again for good/quality apples to enter. I think I am almost there *winks*

THAT NIGHT...

2008-10-11T19:09:00.002+08:00

**A Warm hug**which I never had for a long long time...**Soft whisper** beside my ear..
and Bid Goodbye...**Bon Voyage**..

Sorry guess I fell asleep and I have no idea what I was mumbling on the phone..the next day, a sms from you which you sent last night while I was in my dreamland. I think is really sweet receving sms/short note from someone once you woke up the next morning..the feeling is great which cant help to make me smile even on my Stressful, Ugly and Arrgghh Day =)

Happy Birthday to You

2008-09-29T22:08:00.007+08:00

Happy Birthday my TEDDY BEAR Friend!!
This post specially dedicated to you. A simple doggie cake picture tells everything =)

No matter where you are now,you are always be remembered.

Lots of Love & Best wishes

I am sure we will meet again somewhere someday when....
29/09

WORDS cant be Express

2008-09-25T21:30:00.005+08:00

Am feeling bummed,stress,ugly,hopeless at the moment..It has been a real tiring for the past few weeks..and still it is..Currently got lost and gotta figure the way out..what kind of "trauma" am I facing now?Me going through emotional crisis..my emotion box is filled with emptiness..

Remember stress and frustration are feelings within,you can avoid it if you want to-thanks for your advice.

Finished work pretty late today..once I get inside the lift,tears start rolling but I tried to hold back look up and telling myself "Cheer up,I have done my best"..Ever since I was young,I used to tell my parents-Ich bin einen starke mädchen,ich weine nicht(german) meaning
I am a tough girl and i dont Cry..

This gonna be a tough and long journey a very challenging..but I do believe every knock back makes you stronger..

Where is my colourful RAINBOW?

WHERE is the journey to HAPPINESS?

Right now,I just want to be alone and crawl into my comfy bed..
No colourful pics as I am feeling like a plain white paper coloured with grey and black filled with emptiness..I cant see any COLOURS NOW

Tracy's Wedding

2008-09-18T19:00:00.001+08:00

Congratulations to both of you!!!

May Your Happiness stays forever.

Tata to your old self and say Hi to the new YOu. Welcome to your new Life =)

Early morning the ji muis gather at Tracy's place to get ready for "Exciting Games" for the groom and his heng tais.
We GIRLS are ready!!Are YOu GUYS?? Lets start the game.

A MUST TRY, YOU will REGRET if you DONT

You guys are fantastic..HAhahah

One of his heng tai was asked to wear a bikini.

Time for the groom to sing a song to the bride who is listening inside the room.

You look stunning!!

Wedding Dinner in Sunway Resort Hotel.

Me with my temporary curls. Do I look ok with the curls??

Haiwaiian Girls of the Night.

The twins brother. They cant be separated.

Next time you guys should be up on the stage and entertain us with your jokes =P

Tracy in her Traditional Cheongsam attire.

Next stop. IS saturday night.Have a clue where we are heading to?

This is the onli pic I can display here, rest of the pic you wont be seeing me except for red tomato =S

Wedding Month

2008-09-17T03:39:00.001+08:00

3 weekends in a row-fully occupied with my girls wedding dinner..so if anybody wants to date me,sorry dude I am not free =P another weekend maybe provided I am available,sounds mean hey..

Both wedding dinner share the same similarities-Simple, Warmth and Nice..There will be another wedding dinner to go in October.

Just happend to come across a random blog the other day bout her wedding celebration on an island..I am very impressed and touched with her vow,"It would take me a lifetime to show you just how much you mean to me, and that's exactly what I vow to do from this day forward."and follow by his vow to her, "I love you when you're an angel. And I love you when you're simply human." Isnt that SWEET?,awww...

So how about My Dream Wedding Celebration gonna be?

Too early for me to tell now..still a Secret*

Preview for the coming post

Bad Transportation Service

2008-09-04T14:10:00.001+08:00

Woke up at wee hours early morning arggghhh I hate it to get up cos less than 8 hours sleep..Wednesday will be listed as my Not-So-Happy-Day..every wednesday (for the time being not permanent,thank god!) needta head down to the south,johor bahru for weekly meeting with Panasonic.

I was ready by 5.25am sharp..and my airport limo supposed to reach my place at 5.25am too...
Thinking to myself,is fasting month for Muslims so they might be late for couple of minutes..time went quick,looking at my time already 6am..hey couldnt be late for HALF an HOUR,quickly called up airport limo hotline..DAMMIT! the line was busy and my called was on hold and I tried to call up few times,STILL LINE BUSY...started cursing them (thts bad I know!)..I grab my laptop and get my car key.."FINE, I WILL DRIVE TO KLIA by myself instead of being a dumb donkey waiting for the NEVER WILL COME KLIA LIMO"..

Reached airport at 7am and my flight was 7.25 am, 6.55am was the boarding time me reached JIT (Just In Time)*phew* you might be thinking is not a big issue whereby you still can drive your own car to KLIA but what happened if your car is not with you?maybe in the workshop or somewhere else...

For those of you who travel frequent by KLIA limo pls be aware and pls do double confirmed with them...

Unexpected Dream

2008-07-30T14:00:00.001+08:00

It's so strange,we have not been contacting (dun bother to contact) or seeing (except in msn) each other for some time..but recently you kept appearing in my dream,why is this so?

Missing you heaps?kept thinking bout you?both answer for these will be No..that is so strange..

Why oh Why...will I'll be seeing you again tonight in my dream land??

Tmr gotta wake up early so time to say nite nite here..see you peeps soon =)

One more Try..

2008-07-28T14:00:00.000+08:00

Have abandoned my Diary for like 3 months or more..

*Puff* Gone with the 2 hanging blog entries..I have DELETED them..WHY did I deleted them?becos I am lazy to continue with the 2 entries..might as well just start a new one from now onwards..PAST is HISTORY..

Gonna start FRESH NEW again..my goodness how many so called- FRESH NEW blog do I have so far??I tried to update my blog as often as I could but at the end FAIL eventhough there is this reminder alarm- UPDATE YOUR BLOG!!! and Cheeky Missy here just ignored..

So many stories to tell,figuring on how and where to start?

LAzy Butterfly...

2008-02-15T14:58:00.000+08:00

HEloooo hows everyone??had a good start for the year of 2008??..sorry been missing for a while..busy to update my blog (lame excuse-"BUSY") yesss I am TOO lazy to update my blog =(
I am on MC today,eye infection..currently resting at home...

sorry guys still not in the mood in updating..will be back once I m in full force of updating all the long overdue posts ok..

Lots love,
CheekyButterfly

Last post for 2007

2007-12-31T15:59:00.001+08:00

Last Day of year 2007..gonna ring in my last blog before year 2008 =)
So sad, I am the only one in my department..yes I am WORKINGGG today...
Oh Merry Belated Christmas everyone..Hope you guys had the most yummy turkey and fun with your friends/family/loved ones..

I have been a good girl but why didnt I received any Christmas presents from Santa Claus???Guess Santa has missed out my presents..you think so??

Thats for now..see you guys in yEar 2008..take care!!..
Lots love and HUGGSS...OHH I almost forgot- HAPPY NEW YEAR!!make sure you guys enjoy yourself ,let your hair down on New Year Eve..WOHoooo..

Dear Princess Yeng@Singpore,
Didnt know you do check out my blog..I have lost your contact num in Sgpor..get back to me soon ya...enjoy ur New Yr Eve celebration..Let me know when u r back in Town..Love ya always..

XOXO,
SChmettErling...

We met again..

2007-12-31T10:35:00.001+08:00

Used to have some sort like chemistry which fizzled out with sparks but now Having this strange&mixed feeling when I met you..A million thoughts keeps repeating playing in my head..I dont know what to say,am I saying the right things/am I using the right words/in doubt..and how should I react..just being myself would be good enough..How can you be happy if you cant be yourself and trying to be someone else for the sake to impress the person whom you wish to be with..

*Wait a minute,this gonna be a long post so take a deep breath,make yourself comfortable before you continue reading this,stretch ur legs and arms,come on dont be lazy just do it..*Geeeezz

continue..
I felt embarrased on what I have done on my bestie 21st Birthday..that was the same night where my heart was shattered into pieces..next thing,frens sms came in..touching sms from Victz-"No matter what happened, you know we love you" Awwww I love you too and now I still do heheh =)

Me and Victz

Ads-"Stef,you look better than her not trying to make you feel better but thts the truth"..Mamalia aka Jean-"I can sense something fishy going on and think he likes u"..
Kelv sms-"Girl,take it easy okay"

Went 7eleven for ice cream after the Birthday Party at Decanter,Sri Hartamas..whenever I m feeling blue,ice cream is the best thing to cure my unhappiness..so you know what you can get me next time- not touching sms but Ice Cream or Starbucks Ice Mocha with whipping cream if I am feeling bluuee blue blue..Am I asking too much??No, right?? =)

My Bestie 21st Birthday..

Hey Mamalia,I realised you havent send me your 21st pics from your camera..how come there is no pics taken on both of us only??..

The next day I woke up,realised such a fool I was..I felt extremely UGLY..You have seen me being cheeky&playful& sweet as well as my ugliest side of ME..ME being a fool on that night was totally out of my control just cant help it..I was too proud to say sorry to you..at the end of the day I didnt appologised..

Everyday is a learning process and I have learnt from this..People tend to question if you were to start with something for instance like relationship and get worried about the ending,will it last or is it gonna end up with tears&broken heart,they forget that the middle,the process which counts the most..

You know what,I missed those chatting session in msn..I really do..Ever since that night,things has changed..our friendship has shaken a bit..I know me wasnt mature enough..childish..

People might think it will be silly to try out something which you know from the beginning it aint gonna be happy ending..well it depend on situation,sometimes you will never know by giving it a try...knowing it may end up in failure but yet not having regrets after that and remain as friends-Back to reality is hard to be friends..

A year later,I came back from Perth and we catch up again..went for jazz,dinner,wine testing,getting to know your friends,bbq,starbucks delivert..
I have changed but not you..you are still the same old you..Come and dissapeared,and then out of sudden "SUPRISE"..I am really sick of it,DO YOU KNOW THT,Mr ????You will never know cos you dont even know the existence of my ComFort ZOne here..

As I grow older, i can feel my wall is piling up higher around me where at times nobody can truly understand nor get me..my closet people or even me myself dont even know what exactly I am doing-right or wrong,good or bad?..HUH!So is okay if you dont understand me..I can be a pain in a Butt at times esp when comes to LOve..

To set myself free I have to let you out of my emotion box..Everyone of us has an inner box where all our emotions are being kept..My main in life is live life to the fullest..Today I am Happy Tomorrow I might not be..there is so much uncertainty in our life..You will get to see,feel and hear,new experience by going through those unhappy day..

Those things which are worth to keep I will keep..

After going through some bad experience you will tend to be stronger and wiser..I always remind myself "Is ok to make mistakes as long as you dont repeat the same mistakes all over again" at the end of the day you can have a good laugh at yourself with all the silly things you have done in the past =)..Love& relationship no longer guarantee you bed of roses..

Well I can continue with this post but I dont wanna get too Emo on it..so better stop here..Thts the end of the story bout me and Him..Cant wait for year 2008, let 2008 be one filled with happiness for me..no more drama like this..have this feeling there will be suprises waiting for me *winks* will keep you guys posted especially those who is staying across the ocean hahaha..the one who loves poking me in facebook..

Lots lOve,
Schmetterling

MERRY CHRISTMAS 2007

2007-12-24T12:57:00.007+08:00

HOHO Santa Claus was in Town..Christmas eve in Decanter@Sri Hartamas..Had dinner with ADs,Hem and lovely Moy..And it was quiet and empty at the beginning..later,crowd were building up =)..Not gonna talk too much in this post..Let the pics do the talking =)

Our main dish. Turkey..

It was empty with only 4 tables including our table..

jeng* jeng*..the crowd is coming.. =)

We had a great time!!!

The Girlsss..

Ads blowing with her little trumpet, Merry CHristmas!!

Boys, faster drink up ...faaassttt...faaaasttt...

Thats my CHristmas - 2007. How bout yours? =P

Holiday Mood @ Work

2007-12-21T08:54:00.000+08:00

Morning Morning..my bosses are still around not on leave yet same goes to my 2 male colleagues from my department..means I cant sneak out and have to come back office(plan to head down Pavilion to change my Ted Baker bag)..Woke up early today eventough didnt sleep in early..not feeling good cos the food I had last nite on pre christmas party hasnt digest yet..I was like a big fat pig sitting on the dinning table and stuffed myself with french fries and favourite pasta..feel like vommiting everything out at the moment..Yuckss..

Me totally has turned off my working mode..looking forward for Christmas but NO PLAN on that night which is depressing,maybe I just hibernate and sleep in throughout next week on my off day,how stupid it is..applied leave just to hibernate at home..SIGHHHhhhh...I cant wait for year 2008 to come..2nd half of the year 2007 is just not my year..

Early Birthday wish Msg

2007-12-18T18:00:00.000+08:00

Kew send me an sms-"Happy Birthday...hope ur wish come true,hav a nice day."
CheekyStef-"My Bday is next month not this month, your bday wish came in bit too early..u 2 have a gd day."

Exactly one more month and I will be turning 23..not feeling happy as my bday coming soon-celebration nor feeling sad-a year older...

I am now start thinking on my New Year Resolution and Plan for Year 2008..in the process at the moment..will post it up once it is ready..

At home

2007-12-12T21:00:00.000+08:00

I am sick tht is why I have to stay at Home..Was sick since Monday night after dinner at One Utama SHopping Centre..raining day and I was wearing sleeveless and short pant-wannabe Heroin of the night..got myself a pair of red colour slipper as the ballet flat I was wearing was torturing my feet..it hurts..another excuse for me to get a new pair of slippers..ladies always have plenty of excuses when it come to shopping,gentlemen do u agree?

Goodbye

New slipper..it is very comfy..Christmas coming thts y I choose red,nah wanted to have the black one but it was all sold out,but this colour looks good as well,right?

Talking bout shoes..see how many shoes me and my lovely Moy have

Ok back to the topic,I have caught a cold on Monday night..once I got back whole body was shivering *wish a furry bear would be beside me and hug me tight tight to keep myself warm*..didnt even on the fan on that night..whole body felt so sore..felt extremely sleepy didnt even off my laptop and dozed off Zzzzz..woke up in the wee hours feeling hot as I am inside a sauna room..sweating and quickly on the air con and the fan,the next minute I am feeling cold..off the fan and air conditioner..my body temperature fluctuated very fast, goes up and down..
P/s: Steeve, God didnt hear your prayer..I AM SICK..

Tuesday was a public Holiday as it was Selangor state King's birthday..so I get to rest at home didnt go out..and Moy was at home cleaning up her room..I was supposed to do the cleaning as well but I am not in the mood..

Today,Wednesday I declare my own holiday as my Rest-at-home-Day..feeling better but was coughing throughout the night..not as bad as when I first started to work..Headache so sms my colleague this morning,telling her I will be on MC today..take this opportunity to rest at home..been out everyday since friday night..Saturday and Sunday was out for shopping..year end sales..I need a printing money machine desperately..gonna spend my day sitting at home and blogging..lots of posts are still pending..

Wee Kent's 22th Birthday

2007-12-06T23:23:00.000+08:00

Met up with him for dinner at Italianese at the Curve for his belated birthday celebration..Was raining and the traffic was in a messed as usual..how can we celebrate birhday without a birthday cake?? Me managed to get him a slice of Baskin Robbin cake..as we were too full to have the whole cake..

Here comes the choco and Vanila cake+ candles

Birthday Boy

May all your wishes comes true..Happy Belated Birthday..
Next year might not be able to celebrate your 23th birthday with ya since you wont be coming back Malaysia by then..

Princess's Birthday

2007-12-02T23:00:00.000+08:00

Ever since I started with my working life we rarely get to meet each other..but still knowing each other's overall daily routine..and now we are bit further apart since you going to settle down in Singky..

Happy Birthday Sweetie (30th November)

Had Steamboat at Sri Petaling then headed down to Red Box Karaoke till 3am in the morning..got myself to my Lala Land at 4am...

Late to work

2007-11-13T21:20:00.000+08:00

Woke up at 8.15am...LAAAATTTTeeee..HUrry..What am I going to wear?? "Stef no time for you to think on what to wear"..A bad start,hopefully nothing goes wrong at work..
Not in a good mood..feeling blue till I saw this..rainbow =)

Been pretty busy with work..seminars to attend..follow up with certain shipments..

Had dinner in one of the japanese restaurant at Sunway pyramid with my college mates..thts my day..tired..see you guys in my next post,cheers

Suprise Visit

2007-11-10T17:28:00.000+08:00

A message pop out from Kiwi:heya guai mui,just to let you know I'm back for a week till 16th of Nov..gimme a text or call me at 016XXXXXXX...I was out when the message came..havnet seen him for 2 years..He went to London for studies after high school..We had lots to catch up and talk about..We met up on Sunday night at mamak stall near my place..it was the same night,my bestie went off to Singapore..She missed out the gathering=( It would be great if she was around..

Hope to see ya again in London next year if I have the time..be patient and do wait for my arrival in London..We dont see each other often neither do we keep in touch often but we do appreciate this friendship..you are not forgotten..all the best and good luck for your job hunt in London..

HOT SOUP=Bad Day

2007-11-09T16:11:00.000+08:00

Is Friday and I should be happy..BUT I AM NOT..in the hot soup currently at work..GOSH!!! cant wait till 5.30pm...my client is rushing me whereby I cant do anything at the moment as I am waiting for Japan's reply..ARggghhhh..being shoot by my client-"IS that how you guys do things??"..SIgh...Bad day Bad Day =(

Worst Date EVER...

2007-11-07T13:00:00.000+08:00

Morning Morning..brought some secret recipe choco cheese cake for my colleagues.. looks yummy but I didnt try..SUPRISE??Is my favourite after all..Bad news,I have put on weight by 2Kg..needta start with my diet..but when??and how??cos I always fail by doing it..Hey those skinny people out there,who desparately wanna put on weight..why not I donate some fat to you?? hehehe

Went for a date last nite without my Lia Sistas knowing blehh..and IT WAS SUCKS..this guy whom I get to know during college time...totally lost contact ever since met him in Cafe Flame..donkie years back which was a happening place..now better dont go..just happened to meet him one fine day and we exchanged phone number..yesterday he sms me and ask me out for dinner..and dont know why on earth I agreed to go out with him..I think somethinh wrong with me..YA PLS SPANK ME LEFT AND RIGHT!!The moon was blue last nite I guess..once he came and picked me up, I know I was totally WRONG.. =(
I wont simply go out with guy unless Daniel Wu or Edison Chen which you cant resist..*smile*..I really regret going out with HIm..Yerrr *goosebumps*

We headed to the Apartment,Curve for our dindin..He showed me where he stayed which is in Damansara Perdana..nice condo- Metropolitan Square..He is staying alone..his parents are staying in Taiping..our conversation was just a general discussion..talkin about my work,studies- cos he is still studying at Metro College-5 years..for his master??No MAn he is still struggling with his degree..he failed 5 times for his Account 100-1st year unit..and Econ failed more than twice I think..I m not being mean or sarcastic as Im not a Genius or Smart Ass here but how can u fail a unit for 5 Times????which is a pretty easy unit..
“Stef, I think guys normally find it hard to approach and getting to know you better.You are very demanding” That is what friends normally will tell me...I can be choosy in terms of friendship and relationship..

Belief it or not once I step into his car,I can sense I have dig myself a grave hole..This guy is really DESPERATE..start telling me his love story..giving me a very brief introduction..I AM NOT INTERESTED IN YOU..HELLLOOO…then he start asking me bout my love life..sorry friend,don’t feel like sharing with ya..and this guy goes to gym everyday so he is kinda fit..as he wanna looks good and sexy..SEXY???hahahha..he had baked fish with cheese and 2 glass of beer..me-salmon sandwich and a glass of apple juice..healthy food *winks*..start on my diet,Christmas is coming..after finishing his first glass of beer,his face getting red and I hate people who was puffing cigarette towards me..be more considerate please..he was smoking as taking in Oxygen..one stick after another..and he keeps staring at me..his eyes are like *twinkle twinkle * little star..glowing..as if I am naked..
I cant wait to go home after dinner..so I told him I needta meet a friend so cant stayed out late..

“Stef, can I ask you out again next time?”
CheekyMe-Erm it will be more fun if there will be more people..I will ask Racheal out since you haven’t seen her for a while..
“OH thts cool, I love to hang out with more people..cool cool..can bring pretty gals as well-showing his gross look and smile”..
Me thinking- Dream on..will nvr intro my frens to such a gross man like u..Hell no..no more going out with ya,Mr.Gym Man..this will be the first and the last time..
“Maybe we can go travel like going to island or sightseeing since you love traveling?”
CheekyMe-Nah I already have plan with my friends..i only travel with certain friends..Me being mean??I have to..
"What kind of car is ur fav?"
CheekyMe-sportcar
"Ooohh..at first I wanted to buy this Mazda RX8 but my mum doesnt approve it so I ended buying this car-Civic which is 2 weeks old.."
"Have you ever thought or hoping to married a rich man??"
CheekyMe-Nop..becos of his money I wanna get married with him..No way!!
“Hey my bday is coming, will u b free on 18th?
CheekyMe-Sorry my schedule is pretty full..will be bc with working(attending seminars,travel for business purpose-Lying =P)..friends coming back from Oz..
“Then how about 19th?As my actual birtday is on 19th..
CheekyMe-Sorry don’t think so..wish you Happy Birthday in advance =)
He was disspointed but who cares..
“Hey I saw a nice wallpaper pic on your hp,can I have a look?”
He wanted to see my fren pics..as it was group pic with Jane and Moy…
At the end,he didn’t get to see it hahah
Suddenly my hp starts ringing...Guess who??
Another gross fella who I met at Bangsar..who still dont give up calling me eventhough i dont answer his call and dont reply his msg..WHY do I always get to know all this kind of guys???

Before I left his car..
"Stef,take care and good night..can I have a hug from you?"open his arms widely..Thank god lucky he didnt ask for a kiss on the cheeck u know..which I dont mind but TOWARDS HIM..thankyouverymuch..NO NO...
So I just gave him a distant hug told him I havent shower-was lying..hahha..

I am so relieved when I got back..Once I open the door,my lovely Lia Sistas and my caring boyfriend-Mr.Ham(bahagia guy with 4 lovely girlfriends-Lia sistas)are waiting for me..I m his smallest little gf who always give him headache and lots of suprises!!Hmm maybe I should post bout my Lia sistas&Mr.Ham..knowing they gonna pepper&salt me lots of question,I was already well prepared with answers..so try and shoot me I have no fear..haha..Cheeky Cheeky Me..

LIA SISTAS "Must be a good looking guy if not you wont simply go out for a date." Dear Lia sistas,HE IS NOT..
Lia Sistas "Then y do u go out with him in the 1st place whereby some other guys ask u out which u normally will reject."
cos I was thinking it will be like more than 2 of us for dinner
Mr.Ham-U very bored issit??
CheekyMe-Noo..if I m bored,you(Mr.Ham)will the 1st in my list who going to entertain me..geeeez*

Didn’t know he such a loser I mean the guy who I went out with..

THis is the one and only (touch wood the last one)worst date experience I ever had..WHY ON EARTH did I GO OUT WITH HIM???is still a mystery..I really dont know..SHITTT!!WRONG DECISION I HAD MADE...learn from experience..

So quiet in the office..everyone is in Deepavali mood,same goes to me..everyone is so free now..my dear colleague Ms.Jerical suggested to buy lottery 2gether with Edmund who is just stitting beside her..her neighbour =)..hoping to win millions..gd luck to them..everyone is not in the office..my department all out..some went to sales visit..some went for lunch..some who celebrate deepavali has half day off means they can leave at 1pm..and me happy blogging here..bosses all not around..but later going for this Atlas Contractor's Day as my colleague has an appointment in Nilai..no one is going so I will be going..and this seminar starts at 4.15 till 9.30pm*faint* normally they finish it early..finger cross...will bring a long few sticks of mentos candy to keep me awake..will be going together with ocean freight representative,Boby..he gonna pick me up means I dont have to drive =)lazy to drive..Drove to Seremban yesterday after our debtors meeting and E-billing presentation...went to Totoku as they have claims to made with damage cargo..Is good at time where you just needta to do your work in the office insated of going out..tiring travel up and down especially under the hot sun...

STill have one post pending which is my Cameron trip..received the pics from Steeve..many pics were taken..as I brought my own camera as well..dont know which one to post..and I am lazy..So steeve,why dont you blog bout our cameron trip and I copy past it to my blog??good idea??I can help you to choose which pics to post into your blog as you cant post all the pics up hehhee..nah jus jk...will pass u the cd wif pics to you latest by this sat..if you are working this sat..

Just received a msg from Marco,asking me for lunch..another good buddy of mine(good man) =)who just got into a relationship...congrats!! okay going off for lunch..byee

Beginning of November..

2007-11-02T16:13:00.000+08:00

*yAaawwwwNNn* suddenly I m so sleepy..need someone to SPANK me!!!!met Liz and Lovely Moy for lunch in Kopitiam SS15..ordered the wrong food...had prawn meehoon,tasteless..should go for their toast instaed...but I m HUNGRY tht time dont think toast can satisfied my stomach..I have PUT ON WEIGHT!!!had problem with parking cos is lunch time and is FRIDAY..yup is FLYDAY...will be going back Seremban today after work..havent been back for 2 weeks..mum starts complaining %#%$#@ cant go back straight from work as I havnet packed my stuff yet was bc last nite.Met up with Denise who just recently broke up with my cousin bro..listening to her sad story..poor girl Awwwww...

Still waiting for my colleague's pic in Cameron Highland..guess will b having time to blog this weekend provided I stay at home n b a gd gal..no more delay in updating my blog..supposed to party this weekend..is it still on?? Missed the halloween party..ok I think better get back to work..blogging is not part of my work *cheeky grin* See you guys later!!!

New image for my Blog

2007-10-21T22:20:00.000+08:00

Hi everyone...this site is currently under REnovation..will be back soon for blogging..

lots love,
schmetterling

A Beautiful Day with my Baby Gio Gio Bear

2007-02-09T18:13:00.000+08:00

Name: Gio Gio Bear
D.O.B: 18th January 2007
Sex: Male
Place of Birth: Perth, Oz
Character: cheeky(like mummy)naughty, mischievous, lazy
Favourite movie: Aladdin,Tom and Jerry, The Simpsons

Cutie little angel

Time to wake up GIO GIO…
I know you are awake, get your lazy ass up…
GIO GIO looks so sleeppyyy YAWNN had a late night =(

GiO Gio with his favourite duckie pillow QUAK QUAK

Baby Gio, watcha doing inside the bag??playing hide n seek??
can see your small cutie ears…you are not good in hiding

Time for shower smelly bear..GIo Gio is afraid of water =(

Gio Gio best friend-Fatty BOOm is his name
His dad always leave him alone PoOr Fatty Boom
(Jay Wilder-irresponsible daddy)

Fatty Boom is sitting on Moy's bag dont let her sees that or else you'll be gone

Yup thts him-Fatty Boom’s dad..Do they look alike =P..Both having fat tummy
father and son..

Having fun inside the box

Fatty Boom tried to get into the box

Too fat to get into the box =(

Jump in joy on aunty smelly’s luggage..
Lying down on it..is so comfy..
better watch out don’t let aunty smelly sees that
she gonna pinch,poke and tear off your ears

Messing around-Cheeky notty Bear

Gio Gio bear-OUCH!!it hurts my ear..I wont do this anymore I Swear!!

Gio Gio Bear-Yummy..I love that..Can I have more?

Tim tam choco is his favourite

Have I put on weight?

You are still under age..YOU CANT DRINK..put it back please.
You are still a baby..

You sure you know how to read that?
What do you know about love Gio Gio?
All you know is just eat, having fun and sleep…
nah he doest know how to read that just pretending..hahah

SHHhhhh they are having their nap…ZZzzzzz
Fatty BOOm stop snoring like a pig..

Gio Gio bear is ready for taking picture together with Moy
but Sweetie Moy seems to be busy with her video conferencing with her admires I guess..hahhaha
Give your sweetes smile and say CHEEEEESssseee...

Before going to bed,he always wait at the door..guess he is waiting for someone which he misses very much..Gio Gio hopes to see him every night before he goes to sleep..
Gio Gio Bear-"WHere Are YOu??How come you dont come and visit me?*Miss Miss Miss"
It takes time for me to explain to Gio Gio Bear why the person he is waiting everynight wont be coming..Hopefuly my baby here will understand one day =)...

Hey everyone, guess you guys might thought STEFANIE HAS GONE MAD,IS SHE ALRIGHT??..hahahhaha
sometimes is good to be a kid again with no worries by doing all this childish stuff
Nah i m Okay not mad, dont worry.. =)

Nobody

2007-02-03T21:48:00.000+08:00

Here she landed on to an unfamiliar place from her own world
A place where she never think of coming
A place where everyone was dreaming to be
Everyone is hoping to have such a glamorous life like her
Glamorous life is not what she is hoping for
Silence, peace& happiness are what she is dreaming of
She looks perfect as if her heart is smiling from inside out
Her heart looks perfect from outside but deep inside
Scars are everywhere, wounds haven’t really mend
She tried her best to cover her imperfection heart
As she doesn’t want anybody to see it
Hopes water can washed off all her pain

Not expecting to meet new people in this place
Not expecting them to comprehend or understand her
It is difficult to get into her heart and her world
Because she choose to lock it
Unless you have the key to open it

Deep inside her, she could hear someone whispering to her
“Innocent girl, trust no one as they will harm and hurt you”
She has to live her life on her own without her guardian angels by her side
Faith and stubbornness are her only best friends
Fears and tears are her only companion
When her world turned into upside down
And things suddenly changed without any warning
Disappointments started to creep in
She stays strong and not let the tears paint her face
Her heart start to sink like Titanic into the deep great ocean
She was like one of the passenger who was screaming for rescue
Unfortunately no one heard her no matter how loud she shouted

She was treated unfairly and justice wasn’t made
Nobody is willing to give her a hand and choose to abandon her
Pretend as nothing had happened
She prefer to be a mysterious girl by wearing a mask
Nobody is gonna know the real her behind the mask
She choose to be happy for one’s celebration without being invited
Thats the journey of Nobody

Love& Relationship

2007-02-03T17:38:00.000+08:00

Everyone has his/her own definition of LOVE. Have you ever been in love? Loved by someone whom you do not know how to appreciate them? Love someone who doesn’t know how to appreciate you and treat you like shit? Honestly if you were to ask me what the definition of love is, I can’t give you a complete answer as I haven’t met someone who I truly loved. You have to experience it by yourself.

Love can fill you with joy and sweet dreams of a future together. It’s not love if the feelings bring you nothing but PAIN and HOPELESSNESS. Love is like a river and you just have to go with the flow and follow the flow of love. True love doesn’t come by finding the perfect person but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly. They say if you love someone you will be willing to wait for him/her forever but how can you wait for someone who’s waiting for someone else who is NOT YOU??

Love is like a heaven but hurts like hell. Love is beyond understanding and reasoning. There is no right or wrong when it comes to love. Sometimes we love with passion and feeling without rein. Sometimes we love with caution and serious consideration. Sometimes we mistake love that’s steady, strong, and sincere as an obligation as we get blinded by love that is exciting. Learn from the past broken heart relationship and cherish the memories. I personally think love is most exciting part of living, agree? Do not be shy or hide away when there is a fighting chance for love because you will never know there might be a surprise waiting for you. Your life wont be complete without a true love but it takes time to found the true soul and nurture a good relationship.

Even if love is not meant to be at this time around, value yourself more. Love yourself and you will be less diffident when it comes to love. Stop torturing and hurting yourself after you come to an end of a relationship because is not end of the world. Ending a relationship means the beginning of a new one. Be strong and have faith in yourself to walk out from the darkness. Let go when you're hurting too much, give up when love isn't enough, and move on when things are not like before,for sure, there is someone out there who will love you even more..

Loving should always be unconditional and selfless, but it's not always easy. "Love is not just an emotion; it is more of a responsibility to make the other person happy, to bring out the best in yourself and your partner, and to grow together as individuals and as a couple. I think that it isn't right if a man does everything he can to try to get you into bed with him 'cos it's love. Nowadays, teenagers are getting pregnant at an earlier age. People are getting married for all the wrong reasons that are why there are broken families, broken homes, people without fathers and mothers. It's really sad what this world is coming to.

Have you ever experience by loving the right person at the wrong time..having the wrong person when the time is right..finding out you love someone right after that person walks out from your life and wont come back to you anymore and start blaming yourself and start to regret. The saddest thing is when you lost someone who you can’t be together with, you can close your eyes to things you don’t want to see but unfortunately you can’t close your heart to things you don’t want to feel. Love start with a kiss, grows with a sweet& passion kiss and end with TEARS.

Most relationships couldn’t work out is not because the absence of love -love is always present, it's just that one was being loved too much and the other was being loved too little...one who is willing to give unconditional love and the other just received it and take it for granted. As we all know the heart is at the center of our body and it beats on the left. Maybe that's the reason why the heart is not always right..does this make sense to you ?

Most often, we fall in love with the person we think we love but to only discover that for them, we are just FOR PAST TIME and as their companion when they are loney, while the one who truly loves us remains either a friend or a stranger...

A test for true LovE

2007-01-31T15:01:00.000+08:00

Someone send me this story some times ago which I think is pretty interesting and would like to share with you guys,enjoy the story..

Lt.John Blanchard was in New York City at Grand Central Station, and he looked up at the big clock. It was five till six. His heart was racing so fast. At exactly six o’clock, he was going to meet the girl whom he thought he was in love with, but he had never even met her. He has been in Florida during WW II and while he was there he we went to a library to check out a book. He flipped through a book and noticed that someone had made notes in the margins. He read the notes and said to himself, “I would love to meet whoever wrote these notes–they seem so kind, gentle and wise.”

He saw in the front of the book a name–Harlyss Maynell, NYC. With a NY City phone book he set out to try to find her. He did and he wrote her a letter and was then shipped back overseas to fight in the war.

Harlyss actually replied to his letter and they began writing back and forth to one another throughout the war. One time John confessed in a letter that he was scared when they flew over to Germany. Harlyss replied that “All brave men are afraid at times. Next time, you are afraid, just say, ‘Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for Thou art with me.’”

John started having romantic feelings toward Harlyss through these letter and he wanted her picture but she replied, “No, I won’t. Relationships are not built on what people look like.” Longing to meet her, the day finally came when he would come back to he States on leave. He told her he wanted to take her to dinner so she arranged to meet him in New York City’s Grand Central Station at 6 p.m. under the big clock. “You’ll know who I am because I’ll be wearing a red rose,” she told him.
The day came and this is how John described his first meeting with Harlyss:
“A young woman was coming toward me, her figure long and slim. She had blonde hair that lay back in curls from her delicate ears. Her eyes were as blue as flowers. Her lips and chin had a gentle firmness, and in a pale green suit, she looked like spring-time come alive!”

He started toward her, forgetting to see that she was not wearing a red rose. He moved toward her and she smiled.

“Going my way, soldier?” she asked coyly. He stepped closer to her and notice...Harlyss Maynell with the red rose in her coat. His heart sank. She was well past forty and had graying hair tucked into a worn hat. Her thick ankles were in low shoes and the girl in green was quickly walking away. He had to quickly make a choice. Stay or follow the beautiful girl.

He didn’t hesitate and smiled at the older woman. He was disappointed when he said, “You must be Miss Maynell. I’m so glad you could meet me. Will you join me for dinner?”

The older woman’s face broadened into a smile and she said, “I don’t know what this is about, son” she replied, “but you know that young woman in the green suit who just went by? I met her on the train. She begged me to wear this rose in my coat. She said that if you should ask me to dinner, to tell you she’s waiting for you in that big restaurant across the street. She said it was some kind of a test.”

Butterfly

2007-01-31T14:34:00.000+08:00

The splendor of a butterfly can bring a smile to your eye
A free goer like a butterfly who enjoy freedome loves to move and explore to different new places..not the actual physical part of packing up all her stuff and carrying it around with her, breaking at least one thing of value and then unpacking in the new place, but the experience of changing to different residence.